The Ninja Life
Let's be honest here...you can tell me you're a faith believing Christian, a devout Muslim, a kind man, a thoughtful woman, a giving child, a considerate boss, a loyal friend...but you don't know these things to be true until your words are tested with actions.
These last few months of my life have really tested my spirit, and my knowledge about myself. I realized that I truly DO have faith, because when the "shit hit the ceiling" I knew that, as much as things felt as though they were falling apart, they were all truly just falling into place for me.
Faith is not living in the awareness of what IS...it's living in the awareness of what IS TO COME! You can't say you have faith if when your life falls apart your faith is nowhere to be found. When my life looked like it was falling apart I had to make the decision to walk in faith or NOT? And make no mistake about it, It IS a decision!
Loyalty is measured in the same way...by actions. I have had many "friends" I believed would throw themselves in front of a bullet for me...but when push comes to shove they wouldn't even tell me a bus was coming towards me, much less shove me out of the way. The truth is you can be "friends" with someone for years and years but you will never know if that person is truly a friend until that friendship is tested!
Time is not a test of friendship...LIFE is! We must leave ourselves open to a level of this understanding about all things in life, truly nothing is known until it is tested!
You don't know that you would, or wouldn't, cheat on your spouse until the moment comes that you have the opportunity (and DESIRE) to do so and you choose NOT to. You really don't know whether you would kick and scream in the injustice of life until you're forced to rise above a situation that has brought you down...and you choose to rise and rise again!
I have spent the better part of the last 2 years of my life rebuilding myself, my image, my character, my life...and inspiring people to look beyond where they've been and fix their eyes on new prizes ahead with faith in tact...tethered not to religion but to faith outside of religious ideologies and the deeper understanding of the law of attraction.
Inspiring others to understand that our thoughts are becoming our things because our thoughts become our feelings, and our feelings become our energy, and our energy shifts our awareness, and our motions, and it all eventually becomes a self fulfilled prophecy of WHAT YOU BELIEVE WILL and CAN HAPPEN...DOES HAPPEN!
So when my business goes under...or when I'm sued by a renowned rock star and my character is up for debate...and my own followers are watching to see what I'll do...I must remind myself that ACTIONS. SPEAK. LOUDER. THAN. WORDS.
How can I fall under the siege of depression if I believe that my life is exactly all that I have made it by my own faith in things to come, not seen? I can't. I must remain strong.
So I made a pact with myself...you get a moment to cry...because, let's face it, life is hard, and sometimes it brings us to our knees...BUT DAMMIT KRISTY you never get to whine. Whining is for babies that don't believe in the power of our intentions, and thoughts, and actions.
You're bigger than this. You're better than any situation you're in and take your own advice. Look into your own future and think about the woman you're going to become some day...what would she do in this moment?
Perhaps you're not as strong as you're going to be some day... so look to your future self for direction and guidance here. What would your future self do today?
That future woman is strong, and immobile in faith yet flexible to life. She perseveres through hard times understanding that we simply have GOOD DAYS OR we have "Character Building Days", and there's no other choice at hand.
We cannot simply GO through the motions of life, sweeping the hard stuff under the covers...we must GROW through life, becoming a bigger and better version of ourself along the way.
So at the end of a struggling moment...the most powerful thing you get is the realization of who you truly have become, after it's all said and done.
And let me tell you...it is truly empowering beyond words!
The moral to this story..."adversity introduces a man to himself" ;)